When you choose to relax, do it properly

You know what I did yesterday? Absolutely nothing. OK, I felt mildly ill from a cold. ALso, and this was a much stronger feeling, I needed to step out, out of everything, even out of the sunshine and the beauty of this world. I decided to not work and also didn’t do the other reasonable thing, to go for a walk, or even sit in a cafe with an enticing book. All of which I LOOOOVE DOING. Yesterday it was even less that called me. Doing nothing. Just lying on my sofa watching something and dozing off every now and then. Oh, yes, the idea of guilt knocked on my door briefly and I considered it. But my heart said no. I felt my light shine strong below all this three dimensional “hanging loose” and seemingly inactive state. Something in my soul was mending by allowing myself to just be. Thoughtless, guiltless, fearless. Was it a waste of my brief time on earth? My mind cannot answer this, it is trained into pushing and fearing with or without cause. My heart seemed at it ease, though, and my body so happy to not move, to not matter in a loving way. I felt gently nudged back under my blanket until mz kids came back from school and I appreciated their guidance for the rest of the day, following our schedule in deep “goal-lessness”.

The need for deep nothingness can call us on any day of the week, not just on a Sunday. Rest assured you will jump back into action soon enough!

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