I have been sick the past week. Blessed with a high fever to burn away old pain.
The experience of something old and the chance to transmute it was triggered by me running into an acquaintance from another life. In that parallel (or past) life, we had been close although I always knew that the man would not stay with me. So when he left, it hurt.
I relived this pain and I tried to understand and control the pain in this life which created an intense mental struggle. It pushed me to an edge of my being, I almost lost my center. The fever brought me back and in a constant communication with my higher spirit tutors I learned that I had picked up the wrong tools – mental strategies are no longer available to me. Their vibrational quality is low and painful and not in alignment with my light frequency. I realized and experienced the costs of obsessive mental activity in order to find direction in life. The light waves of my electromagnetics were torn with little holes here and there. I dare say, it was self-destructive. I have not used my mind to guide me in my life for a long time. I was instructed many years back to rely on much higher guidance. My intuition, my heart, my inner knowing that is crystal clear, my higher spirit tutors.
So, wow, what a trip. WHAT A LESSON TO LEARN.
If you feel that you entertain negative thought circles, endlessly and uselessly, stop it RIGHT NOW and ASK YOUR HEART TO SPEAK. TURN THE VOLUME UP. Gain back control and freedom. Practice purity of thought. Stay away from thinking unless it is necessary for analysis. Quick and clean. Listen to the information in you: IT IS LOUD AND CLEAR.