Data like broken coal

A few days back I scanned the body of an awesome woman and mother of 4. why do I call her awesome? Because she has so much space in her being to move with the wind. To follow leads to be open, curious, then intense and upshaking.

On her right I found a large piece of broken up coal. The spirit world has a way to translate data into metaphors. She has been burned, her right side, action giving out side, her male side, her relationship side with man and male stuff, was burned out. This is not a definition of victimisation. Far from it. It means she has chosen many experiences with men, father, the male in her to understand it. She got close to see and now to understand. So there was this data and it was shown to me together with some pictures, some clear some vague.

It showed so it could be assessed, quick and fast. As we give attention all data, all wounding, all learning can be lifted into the light of consciousness where everything dissolves because it has taught us its lesson. The coal was cold and could be removed, done. Lower vibrational light becomes higher light. It always was light, even the darkest hours are light. What we have understood as energy resolves, dissolves, absolves, no matter what the outer circumstances are. We can stand tall and shining while the world does its dance of light and shadow, learn to watch it, shining your light into it, and not be pulled by it.

We identify, compare, defy and compete too much with this world around us. While truly it is all chimera, ever changing in color and quality depending on our lens. Everything, absolutely everything exists IN US, BEGINS AND ENDS IN US. From out this place we can enlighten all former confusion. Shift the camera, guys, shift the camera!

This was exactly the moment in the life of this wonderful woman. Time to turn down the volume of what others say from out their wounded selves, it is the beginning of radically putting her heart and eyes and ears into the center of her inner being to see and decide from their. Find her balance between giving, giving out and pulling in. Not stretching herself thin trying to be RIGHT. She is perfect, we all are perfect as the lovelight that we are.

When you choose to relax, do it properly

You know what I did yesterday? Absolutely nothing. OK, I felt mildly ill from a cold. ALso, and this was a much stronger feeling, I needed to step out, out of everything, even out of the sunshine and the beauty of this world. I decided to not work and also didn’t do the other reasonable thing, to go for a walk, or even sit in a cafe with an enticing book. All of which I LOOOOVE DOING. Yesterday it was even less that called me. Doing nothing. Just lying on my sofa watching something and dozing off every now and then. Oh, yes, the idea of guilt knocked on my door briefly and I considered it. But my heart said no. I felt my light shine strong below all this three dimensional “hanging loose” and seemingly inactive state. Something in my soul was mending by allowing myself to just be. Thoughtless, guiltless, fearless. Was it a waste of my brief time on earth? My mind cannot answer this, it is trained into pushing and fearing with or without cause. My heart seemed at it ease, though, and my body so happy to not move, to not matter in a loving way. I felt gently nudged back under my blanket until mz kids came back from school and I appreciated their guidance for the rest of the day, following our schedule in deep “goal-lessness”.

The need for deep nothingness can call us on any day of the week, not just on a Sunday. Rest assured you will jump back into action soon enough!

All we let flow, will come back to us enriched

The relationship you have with yourself, is mirrored in every situation of your life. Do you feel like you fail yourself or that you fail others a lot? Do you feel guilty and lacking every day?

You cannot give what is not activated and accessed in you. You are abundance but if your negative thoughts block the fullness of your being, it cannot flow outward. Abundance and freedom cannot be felt. Give and you will receive, activate, awaken within you what you want from the world. An equal relationship? Then treat others with love, compassion and trust. Do you miss joy and lightness in your life? Well, start to give that to the world, find it and cultivate it within yourself first.

Today in a session the healthy, confident and determined 6-year old etheric version of my much older client appeared and guided the session to some part. She helped her older self to remember her clarity and self-respect. Hopefully this experience will allow her to activate her self-love and self-care so all these good things can begin to flow back to her once more.

Only what we give can flow back.

Anger in us

I wanted to initially write about the importance of the human being to work with all the data we have available in our being. All the libraries in our etheric and in our cells, our physical. The chakras, the centers of energy in us, above us and below us need to he cleared and expanded. The ascended chajras have not made it into the conscious work of many loving teachers and light workers yet. That will change soon.

Well, but see, I sit in a train while writing and have to overhear a couple one group of seats over from mine. The woman seems to own some solid strength of mind and speaks with a demanding voice. She cuts her partner short at will, shuts him up and criticizes him. It seems insensitive and incoherent behavior. Controlling and repressing. She jumps from a moment of kindness to impatience and anger. Is she aware of this? What Programme is she running, what survival strategy? Everybody is dumm around me, I alone get it? Mixed in with the underlying fear of not being heard. Can we trust in the world when we cut the vibes and vibrations of trust in us short? Can we relax, deeply, can our soul’s blueprint mend when in this mode?

It is a great step into relaxation when we start to listen. To our own thoughts, the grinding in our heads and hearts. Slow down and breath. Sense into your own wound. Zoom into it and love it up. The world is at your service, triggering every single unhealed moment of your life. So say thanks, own this holographic plasma called reality. Work with it, lift it, clear it, love it up!

Is depression a choice?

I talked today to a young woman who went through a major change in her life. A mother of three moving from a complacent and naturebond life into a situation that one could describe as more conform. Work and school now dictate the flow of the family. She told me, “This is a moment where I realize I can let go and drift into depression or I see the opportunity to work on my pain points.”

This is an impressive assessment. We have choice, always. And the higher choice, the elevating choice comes from within. Is directed by our inner state. Do we remember we can choose fearlessness, can we remember we can choose to slow down and trust that when we breath deeply and put in our 50 % that we will be met in the middle by an army of light forces, higher circumstances and opportunities to not just move on but up? Can we choose to trust that this is FOR US, yes, I know this can be hard to accept, that this TOO, is for us when we feel stuck?

I have people seen heal into movement within minutes. Out of depression into connection. I also know that wounding can be very complex and very old. Etherically and physically.

It becomes an obsession

The Self is a bit of an obsession of mine just now. How to put into words what I experience when being it?

See, when I had first moved to Holland about 9 years ago, I sat in meditation for the first time. Before I would just go in and out of the body without noticing it much. I would have conversations with higher beings, beings in other dimensions ceaselessly, half aware most of the time. When I consciously sat down on that Monday evening to follow a guided meditation, all hell broke free in me. Or rather, all light, laughter, joy. It was so big, so loud, an enormous explosion of sounds and golden sparkles. And still it happened in a body that did not stir a nerve or muscle on the outside. As I came out of it, I had lost access to my brain. Again, hard to put into words. Except that everything that seemed to confine the world, separate the moments and experiences, was gone. It seemed unaccessible, or like an empty room. I could feel, finally, really feel my heart, or just feel. I felt HERE. No body, just being here and free and without worry. This never fully left me. It became the ability to sit deeply inside myself, while the world can go mad around me. From that place the journey goes on, it is not the end, the holy grail. It only just begins from there. The hunger to know more, to remember all, and to bring it down here into this life. To realize the Self, I guess.

So, the Self. I experience it as a vast space, a space of light. It is always here, just beneath the surface of this physical, connected light, holding it up, but clearly autarch from it to. It can be without the body. The body not without it. My mind cannot fathom this space, because it has no end or shape. It constantly morphs. This again I just say to ease my mind, while I am writing this. When in it, there are no words needed. It is ISNESS, I assume.

Why does this Self matter to someone who is here to clear data, to support others to heal their wounds? Because when in this space, it is clear as day, that all wounding is transforming unless we stop it. Again, ALL WOUNDING IS TRANSFORMING UNLESS WE STOP IT. How? Through our thoughts. deep, deep unconscious thought and more conscious thought along the lines of: I don’t deserve.

Sitting in this higher Self is not ABSTRACT. THAT is my main concern. To meet Your Self every day, is the ultimate healing pill. It’s your gas station and flower park in one. And the ultimate prevention method for further or new ailment and blockage. Questions? lillian.fellmann@gmail.com

Practice clearing shadow or wounding, densities and blockages.

Breathing versus fear

I worked with a client today who told me that he had experienced sudden existential angst during a singing practice.

Singing is a vibrational practice, a great clearer. Density or held down negative experiences and wounds can get shaken up. This is in general what you want when you choose to heal. For the information to show so it can be melted in the light of awareness. LITERALLY.. We are meant to use the what that we are, light and energy, as a tool. A tool for healing.

My client was unaware and chose fear instead. Will I now get a heart attack? In the session we practiced breathing with measure, with intention, with a higher consciousness in order to move through a pain moment with trust. So it can be what it means to be – a moment of healing. No signal communicates more reliably to our system that everything is OK than deep and slow breathing.

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